How Kinesiology changed my life.
Since I can remember I have always had a passion for health and fitness. Being heavily involved in sport at such a young age, I had to continually learn about nutrition and training. It wasn’t until I reached my teenage years where I started to compete at an elite level that I realised just how important both mental and physical health impacted my performance. Training up to 4 hours a day and eating right was never really a problem, but what did take a lot of work was getting my mind right for a day that counted the most. As I grew older, this seemed to get a whole lot harder and more evident even in other aspects of my life. Having little control of my thoughts, I allowed my fears to always get in the way and mostly ended up in an anxious mess. I vividly remember my last world championship competition….and I say last because every second leading up to my performance was agony…. I ended up psyching myself out in front of thousands of people leaving me frozen, unable to move. This moment did eventually pass and whilst it seemed like I was going to fail on my biggest stage, I did end up performing in the event and succeeding. Was it worth it…..absolutely not!
Aside from the challenges, I absolutely loved the sporting world and everything it had to offer. I loved being fit, healthy, having a focus and being part of a community. I loved it so much that when the decision came to leave the sport I had grown up with, I had not realised how difficult it would be to move forward. For 12 years, I was the “athlete” then suddenly I wasn’t. I felt like my identity had been stripped, I was lost and slowly spiraled out of control.
Whilst suffering in silence, I fell into a deep depression, developed an eating disorder and became somewhat self destructive. These factors led me to make many poor life choices, one of which in particular cost me a lot. I knew I needed to turn my life around immediately. Fast forward a couple of months and with the love and support of my amazing family and friends, I started a new job and moved away from home to rebuild. On the outside, life was better, but I still felt like I was fighting a constant battle inside my mind. Desperate to find answers or some sort of relief, I made the decision to study Kinesiology. A decision that changed my life for the better.
Kinesiology not only gave me a sense of purpose and direction, but it taught me just how powerful the human body is. I learnt how to listen to my body, manage my anxiety, move past my fears and treat myself with the kindness I once never knew how. It allowed me to find pure joy in my life.
I have now learnt, it is not only about me anymore. I have a responsibility to share what I have found to be so powerful with those around me and those still searching. Life is tough but suffering is far tougher, so if there is any way I can help others find their feet to live a better and healthier life through Kinesiology, than that is all I could ever ask for.